I am shocked that I have not written here for three months. Guess our parents were telling the truth when they said that time flies as we get older. ::proud knowing my parents always told us girls the truth::
Well, I have been busy with all sorts of activities and happy about them. AND March Madness is here, to boot! I do love my college basketball.
Aside from the family and social functions and obligations, I have continued to pursue art and writing. These are some of the poems/prose I have completed since my last post.
I am selfish
Sometimes
Not very often
I know when to be
Demands, disappointments
Chaos reigns in my mind
Quelled shouts
Noiseless dark fury
Optimism spirals downward
Fatigue the constant companion
Crying from the inside
Tears begging for release
The time arrives
An internal alarm clock
Shrill, nonstop beeping
Bellowing to be silenced
Enough, enough, enough
Withdrawing begins
It becomes about me
Me
Alone
Solo
A sojourn to renewal
Ultimately benefiting all
*~Nikki/Bedazzled~*
Memory Lane
is that long road
curving and winding
the scenery ever changing
for a time
sheltering trees line it
offering protection
gladdening my heart
before giving way to
vast expanses of desert sand
the emptiness wearisome
joyless
bleak
dead
anxious to escape
to yonder fields
dotted with life
crimson poppies calling
amidst the vibrant green
refreshing my senses
bringing me hope
journeying on
along chilling cliffs
paralyzed lungs
futilely clutching breath
at dizzying heights
reeling
staggering forward
on this path
desperate to reach
the distant rainbow
*~Nikki/Bedazzled~*
The bitter cold increases
permeating my bones
Feeble limbs shiver in vain
fighting the invisible dead
Numbness overwhelms me
warmth a distant memory
Icy fingers surround my heart
crushing it with indifference
The beat ominously slowing
a casualty of your idea of love
*~Nikki/Bedazzled~*
Look at me
Notice how I carry myself
Shoulders back
Chin held high
My step is sure and steady
Rounded hips swaying gently
Easily conversing with others
Laughter tumbling past my lips
The picture of confidence
Do not touch me
For I am made of ice
The warmth of your hands
Might melt my barrier
Too many wounds frozen over
Arctic bitterness holds me
My embrace of choice
Safety for my soul
The enigmatic ice princess
*~Nikki/Bedazzled~*
She could see the colors
of the glorious wind
Revealed only to her
for she herself was a whirlwind
Two distinctly different entities
Unified as one
During soft moments in time
the gentle breeze was azure
A smile played on her face
while the wind whispered
They were knowing friends
She and the wind
Mysteriously gray and purple currents
traced her body when she despaired
The calming touches soothed her mind
and knotted muscles loosened
Together
Helping and healing
Tempests were a crimson hue
matching her fury and wrath
She wildly twirled in the madness
until her energy was spent
No judgment
Only a release
Invisible to all others
she was privilege to its many shades
Matching her own complexities
sharing countless passions
Honored
The wind colored her world
*~Nikki/Bedazzled~*
